Hoping Against Hope

saying i give up is not the same as giving up 

just when i thought i had no more left

these tears start and don't seem to stop

still hurts as much...

still want as much...

is this what they mean by hoping against hope?

Trouble is often "sorries" aren't worth a dime, where a broken heart is concerned.

You should give 'love' a chance. No, not with me. I do not want what I wanted sometime back; for this is not right for me. You are not right for me. No-one ever has made me feel so low... so lacking in self-esteem as you have done (knowingly, unknowingly...) I thought... well... whatever I thought was wrong. I was mistaken.

Whatever my past, whether it worked out or not, the one thing good about it was that he never made me feel bad about myself. And that is the kind of relationship I expect... I want... I deserve. And since I have already have had a taste of it, I will not settle for anything less than that. I cannot, coz only in that kinda relationship will I ever be comfortable, be happy, be... myself.

Believe in Him

He said once
'Believe in him as you would believe in Me...
You never give up on Me
You never doubt Me
You never hate Me
Even when things go wrong...
Your faith remains unshakable,
Your trust undeniable...
So now why can you not extend the same belief to him?'
And it humbles me to think that He would want me to
'believe in him as much as I believe in Him!

Hanging By A Thread

This close am I to giving up...
This close to walking away...
All my wishes, my hopes, my dreams,
Ready to get washed away!
And each moment that I be
Each step that I tread...
With all the emptiness inside me
I am just hanging by a thread!

Together in Fear

You say you are afraid...
Afraid of being alone with me?
Afraid of giving me the wrong notion?
Afraid of falling in love with me?

Well, I have something to share...
I am afraid as well...
Afraid that I will fall some more for you
As if that is even possible
Afraid that my tears will fall
When all that I want is to hide them from you
Afraid that I will never fall in love again
When you say there is no hope for an 'us'...

And so I put on a brave face when you say you are afraid
Coz I am afraid as well!

Unbearable Pain

The pain is too much to bear...

Each night I cry myself to sleep... 

Each morning I wake up with tears in my eyes... 

And each day I pretend as if nothing is wrong... 

And then back in my bed, as I lay all alone... 

Each night I cry myself to sleep...

Frozen Time

I wish time had frozen out on those three days...
Coz even being in so much physical pain...
I hadn't felt so loved.... In a long, long time...
And now when those three days have turned out to be an illusion...
I wish time had frozen out on those three days...